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goshdarnspam2012-09-17 08:23 am
crab) wrote in goshdarnspam2012-09-17 08:23 am
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TL;DR CHARACTER RELATIONSHIP MEME.
♥ post with your characters
♥ respond to other people's characters with your characters
♥ they tell you in detail what their character thinks of your character, ic or ooc! tl;dr is enouraged.
♥ then you react if you want!
♥ other people do the same thing to you! maybe you harvest your tl;dr to use in a CR chart later!
♥ stolen from a bunch of people i dont even know who whoops here is how it works.
♥ NO ONE IS LATE. check back regularly!
♥ post with your characters
♥ respond to other people's characters with your characters
♥ they tell you in detail what their character thinks of your character, ic or ooc! tl;dr is enouraged.
♥ then you react if you want!
♥ other people do the same thing to you! maybe you harvest your tl;dr to use in a CR chart later!
♥ stolen from a bunch of people i dont even know who whoops here is how it works.
♥ NO ONE IS LATE. check back regularly!
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There's no getting around the fact that Feferi is still really angry at Eridan for killing her. She was angry enough at him maiming poor Sollux to attack him in the first place, after all, but she's REALLY angry that he killed her - it hurt, first of all! And she had plans that she wanted to see through! But part of it is also that it felt like more of a betrayal than anything else; she'd been closer to him for longer than any other troll around, and of all the many many ways she'd imagined dying, being killed by him wasn't one of them.
But here's the thing, she felt like it was a betrayal because they HAD been so close for so long. Feferi can't bring herself to hate him even if she hates what he did; she cared too much for him for too long to be able to just erase that easily. She doesn't even like being angry at him, though he's very good at making her feel that way.
On some level, Feferi feels guilty for all of it. She tried so hard for so long as his moirail, and that she couldn't ever make any sort of change... she blames herself for being a bad or ineffectual moirail. So she feels a bit responsible for him killing Kanaya and the matriorb and even killing her - if she'd been better at their pale romance maybe he would have been calmer or less murderous. She also can't help but even still try to make him see when he's being a jerkfin because of those long-ingrained moirail habits; it was exhausting and draining but she can't seem to stop herself doing it because nobody else is, obviously.
And in the City she just feels more conflicted about it all. Because apparently past versions of her have gotten revenge on him (which weirds her out, since she doesn't ever think she'd WANT to "get revenge")... but that wasn't her. So is the score settled between them, because other versions have settled it? On the one hand, she doesn't have any cathartic memory like that of having gotten even, but on the other it wouldn't be fair to put him through whatever her past selves did again, right?
And even more so, when she sees that he's older and scarred and obviously following a dangerous path, she just feels worried for him and sad. Her first instinct is to try and stop it. But she can't, and she knows it.
And she hates how rigidly he claims to hold to the hemospectrum. Mainly because how he treats Sollux over it, but also because some of her best friends are lowbloods!!
...it's all very sad, really 38(