IT'S THAT VERY SPECIAL TIME AGAIN.

[goodburger]

Time for.......


THE GODDAMN TEST DRIVE MEME

1. COMMENT WITH A JOURNAL OF A CHARACTER YOU'VE THOUGHT OF APPING/WOULD LIKE TO APP AS THOUGH THEY'RE ALREADY IN C&C
2. TAG AROUND WITH NEW JOURNALS OR OLD!
3. APP THEM ALL NOW!
4. IT IS PHYSICALLY IMPOSSIBLE FOR YOU TO BE LATE SO DON'T YOU EVEN GO THERE
5. LINK THIS POST TO ATP ADS YOU POST LATER
6. THIS TEXT HAS BEEN RECYCLED AT LEAST 25 TIMES
7. HAVE SOME FUCKING FUN

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[ he jerks at the contact, blurry vision finding the hand uncertainly, then lifting to the other man's face. it would be nice to think that he could be.. stronger. that the fear and pain and horror and violation that he lives with could be taken away. but that would mean finding a way to remove the crest worms, and if they're gone.. what is he? if he lets that happen for his own comfort while sakura is at home suffering a fate that should have been his-- ]

You don't-- understand. [ his voice cracks as he struggles with a sob that's caught in his throat. ] The things.. that go on in that house.. And that should have been me. That was always.. meant to be me. [ but after a lifetime living in that house under zouken's hand and his cruel whims, he'd finally run. and he'd hoped that the matou family magic would finally die.

but zouken had found another way, and it's all kariya's fault. ] I can't.. give up on Sakura, but.. this is all.. I can do. [ he lifts his hand away from his knees to rub his knuckles over his eyes, smearing away the tears. ] It's never-- never been much. But no one else.. seems to care about her.

[failedprotagonist]

[He holds Kariya's gaze, though he's not sure how well the man can see.]

I do understand. I know more about the evil magecraft can do than most.

[He has seen magi make monsters out of men, again and again. He has seen horrors, humans turned into objects, into terrifed animals, into the living dead.]

No. It shouldn't have.

[It shouldn't have been anyone. That was the kind of power, the kind of abuse of power, that Kiritsugu had fought his whole life to end. He had failed, of course. He had failed in every way imaginable. That didn't mean that he had to accept things as they were when faced with an injustice like this.

Injustice... Once he may have truly been able to do something about it. Now, he knows, he's not much good for anything. But he tries anyway.]

No one should have to go through that. [He pauses, studying Kariya's ruined face, compassionately.] I care. I don't know her, but I do care. You'll be better able to help her if you're stronger.